First football game

Soon, ill play my first game for the year :). So excited! Its just a friendly though, the league doesn't start until the end of the month.

An update about my temporary sleep schedule. Everything feel great, never been this rested in a long time, i read while laying in bed now, like i used to do. And the study books i choose are so logical, they are all from the headfirst series, awesome way of teaching. Takes a bit longer than normal, but man! The retention is better than ever.

New movie for the movieclub is decided, took a while, but now there :). Looking forward to re watch  it in Russian. Sherlock Holmes a game of shadows, i like the first one from 2009 a lot more though, strange that Sveta chose the 2nd part before the first one.

Plastic more plastic!!

Just read the press release from Samsung, such a disappointment! I guess my expectations were to high, but its not at all what i hoped it to be. So many unnecessary features along with the same design as galaxy s3. Maybe this was good because now i don't feel tempted to make a phone purchase after all. 

Technology aside,
Yesterday was a really good football training, me and Hayato even stayed after the training to run intervals and to train the stomach. He is way faster than me though, which means that i have to work harder on my speed.

When i came back home, we still had no water. So sweaty and dirty i sat up til 3am before the water came back, and i could take a shower before going to bed.

Yes!

It feels like this is the right way for me to go right now. I just woke up, and its already 1pm but i feel really rested and i am ready for some more challenges. I had a really good study session yesterday night, studied till 02;30 and fell asleep quite fast. I think there is no harm in going to bed late as long as you study and not watch a movie before you go to sleep. If you study, much of what you studied will be sorted out in your dreams and you will wake up with with a a better retention of what you studied.

I still think that going up early is the best way to go, but everything is affected by circumstances and life style. As for my lifestyle right now, going to bed late and going up late fits my life a lot better.

And i would like to credit myself. I have currently not fapped in longer than one mount, And for the last 4 days i have been on an Extreme fap journey. What is even more, i have been monking successfully for 18 days (though i had a wet dream in the middle).

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Okey, no water again so cannot wash my fucking face!! Anyway, managed to cook and eat breakfast at least. Been listening to All summer long 10+ times now, its kind of procrastination :P. Time to continue where i stopped yesterday so i can go to football training with a good conscience. Ohh, and this fucking piano guy is going down someday soon!! Plays morning, day and yesterday he even played at 23.

Resolving issues

It is well known in the programming community that the best times to program are in the late night or in the early morning. Maybe it is the stillness of these times that makes it so good. The stillness of the streets, stillness of the phone, stillness of the mail. The multitude of these factors results in a more focused mind, a mind truly symbiotic with the computer and its code.

My sleep pattern already is fucked up, and i have came to the conclusion that i cannot focus to much on this right now. I will sleep when i pass out, and than wake up when i wake up. From past failures, i now know that i will not be able to construct a working sleep schedule, until i have resolved some of the problems that keep my brain racing at night. The problems are: money (which could be resolved next month), finish and old course (which should be resolved asap), get some vitamin supplement (again the money).

So, tonight i will use this advice from the community and program til i fall asleep. I have just ate and already prepared another meal, this should give me at least 5-6 hours of constant study.

Reports back later!

Cleaned up

Woke up very late today, i think that my body needed the sleep however. I have big times falling asleep at night because i cannot stop my mind from racing. Anyway, when i woke up i began cleaning my room it was awfully dirty and when i finished i began cleaning up labels on this blog. I told you before that i now use OneNote for all my organizations and it has all i ever wanted. I didnt delete all labels yet, some of them contain some valuable information i have to write down before i delete them.

My emptiness is gone today and i feel much better, probably it was the lack of sleep + another factor. The other factor i notices after inspecting what i did the day before i get a day of emptiness and nothingness. The thing all of these bad days have in common is a work out the day before. Every time i work out i am a lot less productive the next day. This is an interesting observation!!! I have to find a solution for this, and there are many solutions.

I could stop training all together but i don't think this is very smart long term. It is better to find and "cure" the underlying cause which basically is that my body recovers to slow. And as we all know, recover can only be speed up by sleep and food, both of winch i will improve the day after an work out. I will need my money to buy the vitamin/mineral supplement and an extra one for Magnesium and Zinc, but whats more important is that i will sleep to 9:30 instead of 7:30 after a work out. Will experiment with the sleep for now to see if there are any improvements.

Emptiness = No motivation!

Was working on my exam yesterday and finished it around 2. But this didnt stop me from going up relatively early (9am) and eat the morning soup. After that i went to play some football in the beautiful weather, felt really good. But when i came back i felt empty, and this emptiness still occupy my body. A really strange feeling, don't like it at all, no motivation nor inspiration what so ever!! I were even close doing the forbidding thing! But manage to hold my self. Everything just seems so meaningless :(.

Maybe its because i dont have this exam in my head anymore, or maybe its the weather changing to spring. I dont know, but i was hoping writing something here would give me some motivation to do some C# programming. Later today i have to help Sveta with her Personal Statement. I will go and take a shower now, sometimes a simple shower can change your mood.

It is after all this i am considering the best skill in the world. To be able to control your emotions and know small tricks to improve the motivation. Alot of people say music can do this, but for me it doesn't work. Watching some inspiring movie use to do the trick, like social network, but i promised myself that i would not watch any movie nor series during the week. And wathcing a whole movie to increase the motivation is a very time consuming trick.

Actually, i began to feel a bit better after having written this. Hmm! interesting!

Training pics update

Man! I am Comparing the photos from the ones i took almost one month ago and i can almost not see any improvement. Me gaining 3kg is certainly not as visible as i had hoped :(. Maybe its because this time we took the photos with the flash so it might be an illusion, haha! We will see next sunday if there will be any visual improvements.

Today i almost finished my exam in the morning before i went to the gym, i only have the conclusion and some fine writing left, i estimate it will take no more than 2 hours. :).

The whole day since i woke up ive been in extra good mood, maybe because i let myself sleep longer than i usually do or because the sky were so clear today.