Resolving issues

It is well known in the programming community that the best times to program are in the late night or in the early morning. Maybe it is the stillness of these times that makes it so good. The stillness of the streets, stillness of the phone, stillness of the mail. The multitude of these factors results in a more focused mind, a mind truly symbiotic with the computer and its code.

My sleep pattern already is fucked up, and i have came to the conclusion that i cannot focus to much on this right now. I will sleep when i pass out, and than wake up when i wake up. From past failures, i now know that i will not be able to construct a working sleep schedule, until i have resolved some of the problems that keep my brain racing at night. The problems are: money (which could be resolved next month), finish and old course (which should be resolved asap), get some vitamin supplement (again the money).

So, tonight i will use this advice from the community and program til i fall asleep. I have just ate and already prepared another meal, this should give me at least 5-6 hours of constant study.

Reports back later!

Cleaned up

Woke up very late today, i think that my body needed the sleep however. I have big times falling asleep at night because i cannot stop my mind from racing. Anyway, when i woke up i began cleaning my room it was awfully dirty and when i finished i began cleaning up labels on this blog. I told you before that i now use OneNote for all my organizations and it has all i ever wanted. I didnt delete all labels yet, some of them contain some valuable information i have to write down before i delete them.

My emptiness is gone today and i feel much better, probably it was the lack of sleep + another factor. The other factor i notices after inspecting what i did the day before i get a day of emptiness and nothingness. The thing all of these bad days have in common is a work out the day before. Every time i work out i am a lot less productive the next day. This is an interesting observation!!! I have to find a solution for this, and there are many solutions.

I could stop training all together but i don't think this is very smart long term. It is better to find and "cure" the underlying cause which basically is that my body recovers to slow. And as we all know, recover can only be speed up by sleep and food, both of winch i will improve the day after an work out. I will need my money to buy the vitamin/mineral supplement and an extra one for Magnesium and Zinc, but whats more important is that i will sleep to 9:30 instead of 7:30 after a work out. Will experiment with the sleep for now to see if there are any improvements.

Emptiness = No motivation!

Was working on my exam yesterday and finished it around 2. But this didnt stop me from going up relatively early (9am) and eat the morning soup. After that i went to play some football in the beautiful weather, felt really good. But when i came back i felt empty, and this emptiness still occupy my body. A really strange feeling, don't like it at all, no motivation nor inspiration what so ever!! I were even close doing the forbidding thing! But manage to hold my self. Everything just seems so meaningless :(.

Maybe its because i dont have this exam in my head anymore, or maybe its the weather changing to spring. I dont know, but i was hoping writing something here would give me some motivation to do some C# programming. Later today i have to help Sveta with her Personal Statement. I will go and take a shower now, sometimes a simple shower can change your mood.

It is after all this i am considering the best skill in the world. To be able to control your emotions and know small tricks to improve the motivation. Alot of people say music can do this, but for me it doesn't work. Watching some inspiring movie use to do the trick, like social network, but i promised myself that i would not watch any movie nor series during the week. And wathcing a whole movie to increase the motivation is a very time consuming trick.

Actually, i began to feel a bit better after having written this. Hmm! interesting!

Training pics update

Man! I am Comparing the photos from the ones i took almost one month ago and i can almost not see any improvement. Me gaining 3kg is certainly not as visible as i had hoped :(. Maybe its because this time we took the photos with the flash so it might be an illusion, haha! We will see next sunday if there will be any visual improvements.

Today i almost finished my exam in the morning before i went to the gym, i only have the conclusion and some fine writing left, i estimate it will take no more than 2 hours. :).

The whole day since i woke up ive been in extra good mood, maybe because i let myself sleep longer than i usually do or because the sky were so clear today.

Defining help

Its about time i made an update here. I havent been in the mood lately to write anything because of an exam i have to finish this weekend. Its this an economic class which i like very much, but the teacher are very absent and dont do their work properly. Think they will get fired after this course. At least i hope so.

Had an interesting conversation with Sveta today. We talked about what help is and we stood on the completely opposite definition on what is means to help one another. We talked quite long about it and i hope i came up with an conclusion for future.

Nothingness 1.3

Yesterday were my third day of Nothingness so far. I didnt do a thing but watching movies, series and procrastination research about the best vitamins on the market. At least i came to a conclusion and found the vitamin pill i was searching for, whole food vitamin pill. These pills come from whole organic food and function the exact same way that if you would eat a real fruit or vegetable. They are quite expensive but as soon as i get money i will get them.

The reason i didnt do anything productive yesterday was because i had my first football training the day before. So when i woke up it didn't feel like i had slept anything, my body and mind were barley responsive. I walked like a hooker who have had to much anal. Anyway i am starting to see a pattern between the days of nothingness, and this is all thanks to writing this blog.

Changing appearance

As you might have noticed i have stopped writing study journals here in this blog. The new tool for writing these are Onenote, which i find 1000 times more superior for that purpose. With that tool everything gets organized within one place, i even have a section for research when im just looking at interesting things online. This way i will learn something from the time i procrastinate in that manner.

The journal will be replaced by pictures, which i think fits a diary much more. A picture says more than a 1000 words it the used expression.

Yesterday i have a quite productive day with my studied. I outlined the exam and finished 1/4 of it. I could probably have finished it but i have to do some assignment for other classes as well. Right now am working in my CSS assignment and when i finished that one i will continue with the exam.