The last two weeks

Its been two weeks since i last posted something here. The first week, i had nothing to post, was doing chinese all the time. Right now im up in 600 characters even though 200 of them are the elements which basically doesnt mean anything. But i hope that with those memorized the new characters will come easier and be better remembered.

The second week, to much happened that i felt it would take to much time to write it in this blog. I decided i will write shortly about everything. My brother came last Wednesday, it was really cool to see him at the airport. We went straight to my apartment, and the first thing we did were to clean his room, it was really dirty since nobody had lived there in the last 8 months. Than we went and ate my favorite dish in ao mi xiang, which he also loved. Than we did some shopping and went to the football training.

The first weekend here for him was quite spectacular, and even though our memory are clouded from that night, he will never forget it, even though he dont really remember it :P. He lost his Iphone 4 somewhere, i damaged a table in the club so i got escorted to the police station. At the police station i spent 6h drunk and with no memory that i had done something bad. They wanted me to pay 10 000. At 8 a clock i called przemek because i didn't get anywhere in this thing i wanted to figure it out, or gain the knowledge in how long they could keep me there. It turned out that they were only allowed to keep me there for 8 hours. Than some translator (which im quite sure worked for the club) came, she was supposed to help me. She seemed to have some kind of relationship with the manager of the club because he listened when she told him to get me some food.

After some negotiation back and forth i offered to pay 1000rmb, which i didn't have. I had to call Andrew and Edvard for the money, and i will pay them back this Thursday. I signed some papers with a bogus name and passport number.

I am very happy that i have friend that will help when i run into problems. And a big thank to Przemek who sacrificed his whole Saturday to come and help me with translations. And for Andrew and Edward who answered that phone even though they were home sleeping, as dunk as i were.

As for the blog. I have decided that writing a daily post is to extreme. There is not much to write about in one single day, and also, later when i want to read the blog it will be to messy and to much to read though. Thats why i will keep it to a maximum of 3 post a week, and a minimum of 1.

Changing back my sleeping schedule

Time has come to an end, i am going back to a more normal sleeping schedule. The last few weeks with the "fucked" up sleeping schedule worked very well with my studies. It is so quite and calm to study at night, no distractions whatsoever. It was a long time ago i were this concentrated while studying.

Unfortunately this schedule doesn't work well with other important parts of my life like, training/football, connections with friends, eating etc. So to get back on track with those things i need to change it back. Gonna be something like, sleep 2am wake up 9am. So i will still get good study hours in the night, but still be up early to train and eat out if i want to.

This week is all going to be about Chinese. Now its time to go extreme  with is as i did with webdesign for the last two weeks.

Chinese chap 3

Character	Chinese	Translation	Mem
矢	shi3	Arrow, swear	Picture of an arrow, pointing upwards.
知	zhi1	Know	Arrow + mouth = To know
⻌	chuo4	r62 go
首	shou3	Head	Picture of a 𦣻 head, with the 丷 hair at the top.
道	dao4	Way, path	go with your head and you are on your way
知道	zhi1dao	To know	know the way is what you have to know to really know something
孩子	hai2zi	Child
太	tai4	Great
太太	tai4tai	Mrs, madame	Someone who is great x2 is a Mrs.
弓	gong1	r57 bow	It represents a Chinese bow, with its handle in the middle
长	chang2	Long
张	zhang1	spread, expand	Also a typical Chinese family name
又	you4	r29 again
欢	huan1	like, joyous	As long as you again take a breath, you will like it.
欢迎	huan1ying2	welcome
寸	cun4	r41 inch	Headleass man sitting on the earth waiting to die.
射	she4	shoot, fire	got shoot at my body, an inch from my heart.
谢谢	xie4xie	Thanks	words that get shoot a lot are thanks
喜欢	xi3huan1	To like	F.C, earth+mouth+headnhair+mouth. So a person on the earth speaking with his mouth have a head with hair and mouth.
五	wu3	five	3 horizontal stroked + 2 vertical = 5 strokes
语	yu3	F.C.in language	words + 5 + mouth is enough to create a language.
打	da3	hit, play	hands and nails are good to use when hitting smb.
电	dian4	electricity	A field that gets hit by a lightning bolt.
电话	dian4hua4	Telephone	Electricity speech, thats what a telephone basically is.
打电话	da3dian4hua4	To call	To hit a telephone"buttons" is what you need to do to call somebody
字	zi4	Character	A 子 zǐ child under a 宀 roof, learning to write 字 zì characters.
生字	sheng1zi4	NewCharacter	Give birth to new characters.

Im in trance

I put on some Trance/Techno music and begin to study, and before i know it 8 hours has passed. It has been like this for a week now, strange how i can concentrate for so long. I am mostly working on my fathers website, which begins to look like a website more and more now. I will post a link to it in the end of the post. I just cannot stop working on it, even though it is time to study Chinese now ive became to fixated and need to break lose. Unfortunately, i think i wont be able to break lose until i finished it, which will probably be in 2 weeks or so. It will be quite cool to have a real working website out there on the web, a website i could include in my CV. Not bad, not bad!

One more thing i have to mention. I am not going to the gym anymore, i mean, i want to and i am planning to go it is just that i cannot put myself to it. I play football 2-3 times a weeks though, but i would need to go to the gym at least 1 time a week to work on my chest.


Here's the link
https://googledrive.com/host/0B_SbIMQpPMFlSm16MkdPR25xWEk/lounge.html

Longest break so far

This is the longest break i have been without posting. And it hasnt been due to lazyness or anything similar, the thing was that i needed to pay for the VPN again. I cannot access this blog without VPN connection because China thinks that blogger encouraging a free thinking behavior.

So what has been going on lately? Well, last week i studied most of the time. I finished the last exam in one of my courses, and began working on a website for my father. I learned alot about webdesign last week, the book headfirst html and css was really great at teaching.

Now it is a new week with new assignments. Since im finished with my webdesign course, i need to put my time on my Chinese course, so this week is all gonna be about Chinese. And some webdesign too, since im working with my fathers site still, it is almost finished though.

Clouded mind

This is what you get when you havent slept for a long time. Cannot think straight anymore, have no feelings and no mood for anything, not even sleeping. Im like a robot now, hoping to pass out in a couple of hours. Had at least a good study night, began to work on a website for my fathers new store. Interesting.

Another good study day!

I am just finishing of a 6 hour study session, one more chapter to go. Not only did i study good, but i did some new food dishes. I made the fish dish, soy milk and soy protein powder. The milk can be stored for 4-6 days in the refrigerator and the protein powder can be stored for 6+months if sealed correctly. Soon i will go out and buy some curtains so i will be able to sleep whenever i want to, a vital investment since i wont be changing this sleeping schedule for a while.

Another worthwhile thing to say, i found real yoghourt, not sweet at all. Costs 9rmb for 400g. Very tasty! 

Here are some photos from today's activities.

I am sorry Diary

Im sorry i havent been able to keep you updated this week, let me conclude all the events in one post.
The night after my last post here brought me nothing close to rest, like a night should do. It all began when i got back from training around 2300, me and Hayato had an excellent post football training so i were really exhausted when i got back home. I tried to sleep but failed doing to, my head was racing as usual. So i decided to to make use of the time and studied the whole night, was surprised i were able to concentrate after such a hard training. Anyway, i went down to eat my tofu soup at 06:30, and followed it with a short walk. Came back one hour later, that's when the hell started. My stomach and me was at war, i had diarrhea and puked for the following 8 hours. The worst thing was that i hadn't slept anything which made me extra weak.

After sleeping for 2 days i finally felt better, just starved this time. I fixed all the doc for Sveta, copying new copies changing the Self assessment, printing photos, going back and forth to dongcai etc. Finally it is out of my hands, and i pray everything will be good with the application tomorrow when Vira will go there.

Today was the first really good day i had this week. Even though i didn't sleep this night either, i managed to read two chapters, do the laundry, shop in carefour, print a book, clean my room and the kitchen. Yes, a very productive day indeed. I hope this behavior will lay the foundation for the coming week. I really need to catch up on everything i missed last week.

Training took an extra pitfall this week, which set me back 2kg again. Me who had been fighting to long for those kgs.

Surprised

I am surprised i really got two hours of quality studying yesterday. But after i wrote that post, i got right to it and open the book. I only studies for 2,5hours though and that is 5hours less than i should study. But anyway, during the circumstances with going out the day before and making it by bus to Viras place, i am satisfied i got any quality study time.

Time to eat Break Fast :P. haha.

Cool day

Yesterday was a long day. I first had a football game and later on went to Nikitas bday. Came back around 3.

So i havent been that productive with my studies today, will get some done now though. Hope to squeeze out at least 2 hours of productive studying. Just finished watching Sherlock holmes in russian, i like. But the highlight of the day must go to my gf, she sent me such a sexy photo i am shooked, and very happy at the same time.

What more did i do today, went to Viras place and ate the very tasty fish with her an Joe. Talked some about Svetas schoolarship and she seemed quite sure that she would get it. But we should never take out anything in advance, april is the date when we will know for sure. I now know how to cook this fish and will eat it at least one time a week, cheap, tasty and healthy, what more can you ask?

First football game

Soon, ill play my first game for the year :). So excited! Its just a friendly though, the league doesn't start until the end of the month.

An update about my temporary sleep schedule. Everything feel great, never been this rested in a long time, i read while laying in bed now, like i used to do. And the study books i choose are so logical, they are all from the headfirst series, awesome way of teaching. Takes a bit longer than normal, but man! The retention is better than ever.

New movie for the movieclub is decided, took a while, but now there :). Looking forward to re watch  it in Russian. Sherlock Holmes a game of shadows, i like the first one from 2009 a lot more though, strange that Sveta chose the 2nd part before the first one.

Plastic more plastic!!

Just read the press release from Samsung, such a disappointment! I guess my expectations were to high, but its not at all what i hoped it to be. So many unnecessary features along with the same design as galaxy s3. Maybe this was good because now i don't feel tempted to make a phone purchase after all. 

Technology aside,
Yesterday was a really good football training, me and Hayato even stayed after the training to run intervals and to train the stomach. He is way faster than me though, which means that i have to work harder on my speed.

When i came back home, we still had no water. So sweaty and dirty i sat up til 3am before the water came back, and i could take a shower before going to bed.

Yes!

It feels like this is the right way for me to go right now. I just woke up, and its already 1pm but i feel really rested and i am ready for some more challenges. I had a really good study session yesterday night, studied till 02;30 and fell asleep quite fast. I think there is no harm in going to bed late as long as you study and not watch a movie before you go to sleep. If you study, much of what you studied will be sorted out in your dreams and you will wake up with with a a better retention of what you studied.

I still think that going up early is the best way to go, but everything is affected by circumstances and life style. As for my lifestyle right now, going to bed late and going up late fits my life a lot better.

And i would like to credit myself. I have currently not fapped in longer than one mount, And for the last 4 days i have been on an Extreme fap journey. What is even more, i have been monking successfully for 18 days (though i had a wet dream in the middle).

//////////////EDIT

Okey, no water again so cannot wash my fucking face!! Anyway, managed to cook and eat breakfast at least. Been listening to All summer long 10+ times now, its kind of procrastination :P. Time to continue where i stopped yesterday so i can go to football training with a good conscience. Ohh, and this fucking piano guy is going down someday soon!! Plays morning, day and yesterday he even played at 23.

Resolving issues

It is well known in the programming community that the best times to program are in the late night or in the early morning. Maybe it is the stillness of these times that makes it so good. The stillness of the streets, stillness of the phone, stillness of the mail. The multitude of these factors results in a more focused mind, a mind truly symbiotic with the computer and its code.

My sleep pattern already is fucked up, and i have came to the conclusion that i cannot focus to much on this right now. I will sleep when i pass out, and than wake up when i wake up. From past failures, i now know that i will not be able to construct a working sleep schedule, until i have resolved some of the problems that keep my brain racing at night. The problems are: money (which could be resolved next month), finish and old course (which should be resolved asap), get some vitamin supplement (again the money).

So, tonight i will use this advice from the community and program til i fall asleep. I have just ate and already prepared another meal, this should give me at least 5-6 hours of constant study.

Reports back later!

Cleaned up

Woke up very late today, i think that my body needed the sleep however. I have big times falling asleep at night because i cannot stop my mind from racing. Anyway, when i woke up i began cleaning my room it was awfully dirty and when i finished i began cleaning up labels on this blog. I told you before that i now use OneNote for all my organizations and it has all i ever wanted. I didnt delete all labels yet, some of them contain some valuable information i have to write down before i delete them.

My emptiness is gone today and i feel much better, probably it was the lack of sleep + another factor. The other factor i notices after inspecting what i did the day before i get a day of emptiness and nothingness. The thing all of these bad days have in common is a work out the day before. Every time i work out i am a lot less productive the next day. This is an interesting observation!!! I have to find a solution for this, and there are many solutions.

I could stop training all together but i don't think this is very smart long term. It is better to find and "cure" the underlying cause which basically is that my body recovers to slow. And as we all know, recover can only be speed up by sleep and food, both of winch i will improve the day after an work out. I will need my money to buy the vitamin/mineral supplement and an extra one for Magnesium and Zinc, but whats more important is that i will sleep to 9:30 instead of 7:30 after a work out. Will experiment with the sleep for now to see if there are any improvements.

Emptiness = No motivation!

Was working on my exam yesterday and finished it around 2. But this didnt stop me from going up relatively early (9am) and eat the morning soup. After that i went to play some football in the beautiful weather, felt really good. But when i came back i felt empty, and this emptiness still occupy my body. A really strange feeling, don't like it at all, no motivation nor inspiration what so ever!! I were even close doing the forbidding thing! But manage to hold my self. Everything just seems so meaningless :(.

Maybe its because i dont have this exam in my head anymore, or maybe its the weather changing to spring. I dont know, but i was hoping writing something here would give me some motivation to do some C# programming. Later today i have to help Sveta with her Personal Statement. I will go and take a shower now, sometimes a simple shower can change your mood.

It is after all this i am considering the best skill in the world. To be able to control your emotions and know small tricks to improve the motivation. Alot of people say music can do this, but for me it doesn't work. Watching some inspiring movie use to do the trick, like social network, but i promised myself that i would not watch any movie nor series during the week. And wathcing a whole movie to increase the motivation is a very time consuming trick.

Actually, i began to feel a bit better after having written this. Hmm! interesting!

Training pics update

Man! I am Comparing the photos from the ones i took almost one month ago and i can almost not see any improvement. Me gaining 3kg is certainly not as visible as i had hoped :(. Maybe its because this time we took the photos with the flash so it might be an illusion, haha! We will see next sunday if there will be any visual improvements.

Today i almost finished my exam in the morning before i went to the gym, i only have the conclusion and some fine writing left, i estimate it will take no more than 2 hours. :).

The whole day since i woke up ive been in extra good mood, maybe because i let myself sleep longer than i usually do or because the sky were so clear today.

Defining help

Its about time i made an update here. I havent been in the mood lately to write anything because of an exam i have to finish this weekend. Its this an economic class which i like very much, but the teacher are very absent and dont do their work properly. Think they will get fired after this course. At least i hope so.

Had an interesting conversation with Sveta today. We talked about what help is and we stood on the completely opposite definition on what is means to help one another. We talked quite long about it and i hope i came up with an conclusion for future.

Nothingness 1.3

Yesterday were my third day of Nothingness so far. I didnt do a thing but watching movies, series and procrastination research about the best vitamins on the market. At least i came to a conclusion and found the vitamin pill i was searching for, whole food vitamin pill. These pills come from whole organic food and function the exact same way that if you would eat a real fruit or vegetable. They are quite expensive but as soon as i get money i will get them.

The reason i didnt do anything productive yesterday was because i had my first football training the day before. So when i woke up it didn't feel like i had slept anything, my body and mind were barley responsive. I walked like a hooker who have had to much anal. Anyway i am starting to see a pattern between the days of nothingness, and this is all thanks to writing this blog.

Changing appearance

As you might have noticed i have stopped writing study journals here in this blog. The new tool for writing these are Onenote, which i find 1000 times more superior for that purpose. With that tool everything gets organized within one place, i even have a section for research when im just looking at interesting things online. This way i will learn something from the time i procrastinate in that manner.

The journal will be replaced by pictures, which i think fits a diary much more. A picture says more than a 1000 words it the used expression.

Yesterday i have a quite productive day with my studied. I outlined the exam and finished 1/4 of it. I could probably have finished it but i have to do some assignment for other classes as well. Right now am working in my CSS assignment and when i finished that one i will continue with the exam.