Emptiness = No motivation!

Was working on my exam yesterday and finished it around 2. But this didnt stop me from going up relatively early (9am) and eat the morning soup. After that i went to play some football in the beautiful weather, felt really good. But when i came back i felt empty, and this emptiness still occupy my body. A really strange feeling, don't like it at all, no motivation nor inspiration what so ever!! I were even close doing the forbidding thing! But manage to hold my self. Everything just seems so meaningless :(.

Maybe its because i dont have this exam in my head anymore, or maybe its the weather changing to spring. I dont know, but i was hoping writing something here would give me some motivation to do some C# programming. Later today i have to help Sveta with her Personal Statement. I will go and take a shower now, sometimes a simple shower can change your mood.

It is after all this i am considering the best skill in the world. To be able to control your emotions and know small tricks to improve the motivation. Alot of people say music can do this, but for me it doesn't work. Watching some inspiring movie use to do the trick, like social network, but i promised myself that i would not watch any movie nor series during the week. And wathcing a whole movie to increase the motivation is a very time consuming trick.

Actually, i began to feel a bit better after having written this. Hmm! interesting!

Training pics update

Man! I am Comparing the photos from the ones i took almost one month ago and i can almost not see any improvement. Me gaining 3kg is certainly not as visible as i had hoped :(. Maybe its because this time we took the photos with the flash so it might be an illusion, haha! We will see next sunday if there will be any visual improvements.

Today i almost finished my exam in the morning before i went to the gym, i only have the conclusion and some fine writing left, i estimate it will take no more than 2 hours. :).

The whole day since i woke up ive been in extra good mood, maybe because i let myself sleep longer than i usually do or because the sky were so clear today.

Defining help

Its about time i made an update here. I havent been in the mood lately to write anything because of an exam i have to finish this weekend. Its this an economic class which i like very much, but the teacher are very absent and dont do their work properly. Think they will get fired after this course. At least i hope so.

Had an interesting conversation with Sveta today. We talked about what help is and we stood on the completely opposite definition on what is means to help one another. We talked quite long about it and i hope i came up with an conclusion for future.

Nothingness 1.3

Yesterday were my third day of Nothingness so far. I didnt do a thing but watching movies, series and procrastination research about the best vitamins on the market. At least i came to a conclusion and found the vitamin pill i was searching for, whole food vitamin pill. These pills come from whole organic food and function the exact same way that if you would eat a real fruit or vegetable. They are quite expensive but as soon as i get money i will get them.

The reason i didnt do anything productive yesterday was because i had my first football training the day before. So when i woke up it didn't feel like i had slept anything, my body and mind were barley responsive. I walked like a hooker who have had to much anal. Anyway i am starting to see a pattern between the days of nothingness, and this is all thanks to writing this blog.

Changing appearance

As you might have noticed i have stopped writing study journals here in this blog. The new tool for writing these are Onenote, which i find 1000 times more superior for that purpose. With that tool everything gets organized within one place, i even have a section for research when im just looking at interesting things online. This way i will learn something from the time i procrastinate in that manner.

The journal will be replaced by pictures, which i think fits a diary much more. A picture says more than a 1000 words it the used expression.

Yesterday i have a quite productive day with my studied. I outlined the exam and finished 1/4 of it. I could probably have finished it but i have to do some assignment for other classes as well. Right now am working in my CSS assignment and when i finished that one i will continue with the exam.

The beginning of a new era

A new week, a new month, many important events. This could be the beginning of what i have been waiting for. The time has come for me to accelerate and run past my studies, beyond and beyond. If this week goes as planned i will finally get my money in the end of this month and all the stress will be extinguished forever. Sleep will come back and opportunities will be presented, i will finally be able to focus some of my energy on things that matters.

This month will bring me
Money
Game of thrones
Family
Warm weather
Football
Samsung galaxy s4

3.2km Yea!!

Ran for the first time this year and it felt really good. Managed more than i initially thought. All in all i ran 32 lengths of the football field, which is a bit more than 3.2km. I didnt do any intervals today and will continue to just run at normal speed for another week. After that week however, thats when my real running begins with shifting intervals, will make up a program for the training soon.

Next week will be the judgement week ;D. Finally got the chance to re do my exam, and have a week to write it from Monday. I already read the questions, and this time they made sense. So i will do this exam with pleasure and hopefully learn a lot during the period, which i didnt do with the exam before. So even though im so stressed and poor im happy i had to rewrite it :).