Just finished another section of math. I have spent a total of 15 hours on math during three days, this is insane. I could have used this time on other studies and would have improved in skills that really matters.
But i have to say that i both hate and love math. It can turn my mood upside down in a matter of minutes, but also me me feel self satisfaction like never before.
I am finely ready to let go of math for this week and have to put my focus on Chinese, CSS and DCC. Whats more interesting is that i got the change continue my course in C#, i have just have to notify the teacher if i plan to do so.
Ohh, forgot to mention that i am nine days clean as of in 1 hour. But i feel the urge to use is growing stronger by each day now. I was even close to break these last few day because of stress and anger cause by my math course, but the deal with my gf made me strong enough to not relapse (it saved me two days). I even got exposed to and old trigger but manage to handle situation in a good way.
One last thing. This sleeping things dosent really work because i dont have any curtains so i cannot get a good sleep at 13. I will have to try to get to sleep before 03 today and go up before 10, and work my way down instead of the other longer direction. I have to get a hold of this now if i want any improvements with my training.
But i have to say that i both hate and love math. It can turn my mood upside down in a matter of minutes, but also me me feel self satisfaction like never before.
I am finely ready to let go of math for this week and have to put my focus on Chinese, CSS and DCC. Whats more interesting is that i got the change continue my course in C#, i have just have to notify the teacher if i plan to do so.
Ohh, forgot to mention that i am nine days clean as of in 1 hour. But i feel the urge to use is growing stronger by each day now. I was even close to break these last few day because of stress and anger cause by my math course, but the deal with my gf made me strong enough to not relapse (it saved me two days). I even got exposed to and old trigger but manage to handle situation in a good way.
One last thing. This sleeping things dosent really work because i dont have any curtains so i cannot get a good sleep at 13. I will have to try to get to sleep before 03 today and go up before 10, and work my way down instead of the other longer direction. I have to get a hold of this now if i want any improvements with my training.
