Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Clouded mind

This is what you get when you havent slept for a long time. Cannot think straight anymore, have no feelings and no mood for anything, not even sleeping. Im like a robot now, hoping to pass out in a couple of hours. Had at least a good study night, began to work on a website for my fathers new store. Interesting.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Another good study day!

I am just finishing of a 6 hour study session, one more chapter to go. Not only did i study good, but i did some new food dishes. I made the fish dish, soy milk and soy protein powder. The milk can be stored for 4-6 days in the refrigerator and the protein powder can be stored for 6+months if sealed correctly. Soon i will go out and buy some curtains so i will be able to sleep whenever i want to, a vital investment since i wont be changing this sleeping schedule for a while.

Another worthwhile thing to say, i found real yoghourt, not sweet at all. Costs 9rmb for 400g. Very tasty! 

Here are some photos from today's activities.





Sunday, March 24, 2013

I am sorry Diary

Im sorry i havent been able to keep you updated this week, let me conclude all the events in one post.
The night after my last post here brought me nothing close to rest, like a night should do. It all began when i got back from training around 2300, me and Hayato had an excellent post football training so i were really exhausted when i got back home. I tried to sleep but failed doing to, my head was racing as usual. So i decided to to make use of the time and studied the whole night, was surprised i were able to concentrate after such a hard training. Anyway, i went down to eat my tofu soup at 06:30, and followed it with a short walk. Came back one hour later, that's when the hell started. My stomach and me was at war, i had diarrhea and puked for the following 8 hours. The worst thing was that i hadn't slept anything which made me extra weak.

After sleeping for 2 days i finally felt better, just starved this time. I fixed all the doc for Sveta, copying new copies changing the Self assessment, printing photos, going back and forth to dongcai etc. Finally it is out of my hands, and i pray everything will be good with the application tomorrow when Vira will go there.

Today was the first really good day i had this week. Even though i didn't sleep this night either, i managed to read two chapters, do the laundry, shop in carefour, print a book, clean my room and the kitchen. Yes, a very productive day indeed. I hope this behavior will lay the foundation for the coming week. I really need to catch up on everything i missed last week.

Training took an extra pitfall this week, which set me back 2kg again. Me who had been fighting to long for those kgs.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Surprised

I am surprised i really got two hours of quality studying yesterday. But after i wrote that post, i got right to it and open the book. I only studies for 2,5hours though and that is 5hours less than i should study. But anyway, during the circumstances with going out the day before and making it by bus to Viras place, i am satisfied i got any quality study time.

Time to eat Break Fast :P. haha.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Cool day

Yesterday was a long day. I first had a football game and later on went to Nikitas bday. Came back around 3.

So i havent been that productive with my studies today, will get some done now though. Hope to squeeze out at least 2 hours of productive studying. Just finished watching Sherlock holmes in russian, i like. But the highlight of the day must go to my gf, she sent me such a sexy photo i am shooked, and very happy at the same time.

What more did i do today, went to Viras place and ate the very tasty fish with her an Joe. Talked some about Svetas schoolarship and she seemed quite sure that she would get it. But we should never take out anything in advance, april is the date when we will know for sure. I now know how to cook this fish and will eat it at least one time a week, cheap, tasty and healthy, what more can you ask?

Sunday, March 17, 2013

First football game

Soon, ill play my first game for the year :). So excited! Its just a friendly though, the league doesn't start until the end of the month.

An update about my temporary sleep schedule. Everything feel great, never been this rested in a long time, i read while laying in bed now, like i used to do. And the study books i choose are so logical, they are all from the headfirst series, awesome way of teaching. Takes a bit longer than normal, but man! The retention is better than ever.

New movie for the movieclub is decided, took a while, but now there :). Looking forward to re watch  it in Russian. Sherlock Holmes a game of shadows, i like the first one from 2009 a lot more though, strange that Sveta chose the 2nd part before the first one.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Plastic more plastic!!

Just read the press release from Samsung, such a disappointment! I guess my expectations were to high, but its not at all what i hoped it to be. So many unnecessary features along with the same design as galaxy s3. Maybe this was good because now i don't feel tempted to make a phone purchase after all. 

Technology aside,
Yesterday was a really good football training, me and Hayato even stayed after the training to run intervals and to train the stomach. He is way faster than me though, which means that i have to work harder on my speed.

When i came back home, we still had no water. So sweaty and dirty i sat up til 3am before the water came back, and i could take a shower before going to bed.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Yes!

It feels like this is the right way for me to go right now. I just woke up, and its already 1pm but i feel really rested and i am ready for some more challenges. I had a really good study session yesterday night, studied till 02;30 and fell asleep quite fast. I think there is no harm in going to bed late as long as you study and not watch a movie before you go to sleep. If you study, much of what you studied will be sorted out in your dreams and you will wake up with with a a better retention of what you studied.

I still think that going up early is the best way to go, but everything is affected by circumstances and life style. As for my lifestyle right now, going to bed late and going up late fits my life a lot better.

And i would like to credit myself. I have currently not fapped in longer than one mount, And for the last 4 days i have been on an Extreme fap journey. What is even more, i have been monking successfully for 18 days (though i had a wet dream in the middle).

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Okey, no water again so cannot wash my fucking face!! Anyway, managed to cook and eat breakfast at least. Been listening to All summer long 10+ times now, its kind of procrastination :P. Time to continue where i stopped yesterday so i can go to football training with a good conscience. Ohh, and this fucking piano guy is going down someday soon!! Plays morning, day and yesterday he even played at 23.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Resolving issues

It is well known in the programming community that the best times to program are in the late night or in the early morning. Maybe it is the stillness of these times that makes it so good. The stillness of the streets, stillness of the phone, stillness of the mail. The multitude of these factors results in a more focused mind, a mind truly symbiotic with the computer and its code.

My sleep pattern already is fucked up, and i have came to the conclusion that i cannot focus to much on this right now. I will sleep when i pass out, and than wake up when i wake up. From past failures, i now know that i will not be able to construct a working sleep schedule, until i have resolved some of the problems that keep my brain racing at night. The problems are: money (which could be resolved next month), finish and old course (which should be resolved asap), get some vitamin supplement (again the money).

So, tonight i will use this advice from the community and program til i fall asleep. I have just ate and already prepared another meal, this should give me at least 5-6 hours of constant study.

Reports back later!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Cleaned up

Woke up very late today, i think that my body needed the sleep however. I have big times falling asleep at night because i cannot stop my mind from racing. Anyway, when i woke up i began cleaning my room it was awfully dirty and when i finished i began cleaning up labels on this blog. I told you before that i now use OneNote for all my organizations and it has all i ever wanted. I didnt delete all labels yet, some of them contain some valuable information i have to write down before i delete them.

My emptiness is gone today and i feel much better, probably it was the lack of sleep + another factor. The other factor i notices after inspecting what i did the day before i get a day of emptiness and nothingness. The thing all of these bad days have in common is a work out the day before. Every time i work out i am a lot less productive the next day. This is an interesting observation!!! I have to find a solution for this, and there are many solutions.

I could stop training all together but i don't think this is very smart long term. It is better to find and "cure" the underlying cause which basically is that my body recovers to slow. And as we all know, recover can only be speed up by sleep and food, both of winch i will improve the day after an work out. I will need my money to buy the vitamin/mineral supplement and an extra one for Magnesium and Zinc, but whats more important is that i will sleep to 9:30 instead of 7:30 after a work out. Will experiment with the sleep for now to see if there are any improvements.

Monday, March 11, 2013

Emptiness = No motivation!

Was working on my exam yesterday and finished it around 2. But this didnt stop me from going up relatively early (9am) and eat the morning soup. After that i went to play some football in the beautiful weather, felt really good. But when i came back i felt empty, and this emptiness still occupy my body. A really strange feeling, don't like it at all, no motivation nor inspiration what so ever!! I were even close doing the forbidding thing! But manage to hold my self. Everything just seems so meaningless :(.

Maybe its because i dont have this exam in my head anymore, or maybe its the weather changing to spring. I dont know, but i was hoping writing something here would give me some motivation to do some C# programming. Later today i have to help Sveta with her Personal Statement. I will go and take a shower now, sometimes a simple shower can change your mood.

It is after all this i am considering the best skill in the world. To be able to control your emotions and know small tricks to improve the motivation. Alot of people say music can do this, but for me it doesn't work. Watching some inspiring movie use to do the trick, like social network, but i promised myself that i would not watch any movie nor series during the week. And wathcing a whole movie to increase the motivation is a very time consuming trick.

Actually, i began to feel a bit better after having written this. Hmm! interesting!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Training pics update

Man! I am Comparing the photos from the ones i took almost one month ago and i can almost not see any improvement. Me gaining 3kg is certainly not as visible as i had hoped :(. Maybe its because this time we took the photos with the flash so it might be an illusion, haha! We will see next sunday if there will be any visual improvements.

Today i almost finished my exam in the morning before i went to the gym, i only have the conclusion and some fine writing left, i estimate it will take no more than 2 hours. :).

The whole day since i woke up ive been in extra good mood, maybe because i let myself sleep longer than i usually do or because the sky were so clear today.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Defining help

Its about time i made an update here. I havent been in the mood lately to write anything because of an exam i have to finish this weekend. Its this an economic class which i like very much, but the teacher are very absent and dont do their work properly. Think they will get fired after this course. At least i hope so.

Had an interesting conversation with Sveta today. We talked about what help is and we stood on the completely opposite definition on what is means to help one another. We talked quite long about it and i hope i came up with an conclusion for future.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Nothingness 1.3

Yesterday were my third day of Nothingness so far. I didnt do a thing but watching movies, series and procrastination research about the best vitamins on the market. At least i came to a conclusion and found the vitamin pill i was searching for, whole food vitamin pill. These pills come from whole organic food and function the exact same way that if you would eat a real fruit or vegetable. They are quite expensive but as soon as i get money i will get them.

The reason i didnt do anything productive yesterday was because i had my first football training the day before. So when i woke up it didn't feel like i had slept anything, my body and mind were barley responsive. I walked like a hooker who have had to much anal. Anyway i am starting to see a pattern between the days of nothingness, and this is all thanks to writing this blog.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Changing appearance

As you might have noticed i have stopped writing study journals here in this blog. The new tool for writing these are Onenote, which i find 1000 times more superior for that purpose. With that tool everything gets organized within one place, i even have a section for research when im just looking at interesting things online. This way i will learn something from the time i procrastinate in that manner.

The journal will be replaced by pictures, which i think fits a diary much more. A picture says more than a 1000 words it the used expression.

Yesterday i have a quite productive day with my studied. I outlined the exam and finished 1/4 of it. I could probably have finished it but i have to do some assignment for other classes as well. Right now am working in my CSS assignment and when i finished that one i will continue with the exam.

Monday, March 4, 2013

The beginning of a new era

A new week, a new month, many important events. This could be the beginning of what i have been waiting for. The time has come for me to accelerate and run past my studies, beyond and beyond. If this week goes as planned i will finally get my money in the end of this month and all the stress will be extinguished forever. Sleep will come back and opportunities will be presented, i will finally be able to focus some of my energy on things that matters.

This month will bring me
Money
Game of thrones
Family
Warm weather
Football
Samsung galaxy s4

Sunday, March 3, 2013

3.2km Yea!!

Ran for the first time this year and it felt really good. Managed more than i initially thought. All in all i ran 32 lengths of the football field, which is a bit more than 3.2km. I didnt do any intervals today and will continue to just run at normal speed for another week. After that week however, thats when my real running begins with shifting intervals, will make up a program for the training soon.

Next week will be the judgement week ;D. Finally got the chance to re do my exam, and have a week to write it from Monday. I already read the questions, and this time they made sense. So i will do this exam with pleasure and hopefully learn a lot during the period, which i didnt do with the exam before. So even though im so stressed and poor im happy i had to rewrite it :).

Saturday, March 2, 2013

8:30 on a Saturday. Not bad!

Yesterday i were scheduled with the twins but i we had to reschedule to Tuesday because Przemek had to be with his gf since she just had a bday and came back to Dalian. He bought and awesome cheese cake for her with 29 candles ;), and had a good joke about that. Need to remember!

I didnt do very much yesterday besides getting comfortable with my new note taking tool (onenote). It is a really great program and exactly what i have been looking for for years. It give such an awesome overview of your results and tasks, its just incredible.

I also got my beef jerky from taobao, and i really like them. When i get more money i will make it a habit of eating one pack a day, and two packets after training. Im starting to get tired of the peanut butter already.

Today i hope to be really productive and finish a few chapters in my Programming book. And in the evening relax with my favorite tv-serial, SPARTACUS!!

I want to congratulate Sveta for passing her informatics exam, well done babe! You seemed a lot more relaxed when i spoke with you yesterday. We spoke for more than 4 hours and wasn't bored one minute of does. Just like it used to be :).